Being Father to a One year Old

This the period of my life I reckon as the most exciting and challenging at the same time. I have been blessed with time that I can afford with my little Gia very early in her growing years and I am hoping I am able to do justice with the time that I have got. From feeding her to taking care of daily chores it has been a journey to remember.

Watching her starting to crawl to walk and now run have been moments I will always cherish. Her playful laughs, her fake laughs and the tantrums I seem to be growing with her. Every now and then I will glimpse of me as a child. Man I was a wreck for my parents I must say. In any way I write this my days have been such a bliss, oh yeah, but it is very challenging. It really takes a toll on your energy levels and on your patience. I have been praying everyday, "God give me patience", I do not want to be rude or raise my voice to this innocent little baby but it can be really trying. The problem is communication...Yes it starts this yearly...communication gap/generation gap all starts very early. They try to explain what they want to do, we dont understand what they want. We are happy as long as they do things according to our comfort and the moment there is a deviation tempers are tested.

Ironic isn't it we have all been through this and now we experience this with our kid...No wonder they say when you will have Kids you will understand what we have been through. Honestly, I am not trying to complain but just contemplate ways in which I can handle her tender years better..Yeah I know there are tons of website guiding you about ways in which you can do it better then you are...This is more self realization and also an attempt to pen down feelings that i experience today and everyday over the last few months. Some day I know when my baby will read all of this together we shall both laugh about it.

Gia Taparia, you are a bundle of joy and as I grow older with you I want to see myself grow out of being a father to becoming a friend that will be there for you whenever you need me. I wish I can be a father that you are amazingly proud of. I will try my best to do what I can to see that you are able to achieve whatever that you aspire to be. Hoping that I would be able to equip you to fight your fears, your pains and inhibitions. Love you always honey and sorry for losing my temper every now and then..will try and better it..I love you and I love you tons..

GIA, I love you

Honey, this is for you GIA. As a father I have been thinking about lots of things that I would like to do for you. I already feel the pressure of it; if I can say that. Probably an expectation for myself. I hope I can be a reasonable father who is able to grow with you. This involves understanding how you are growing and transition with you.

Often i think about the way we will communicate with each other. How will we build trust and responsibility for each other. How will I answer all your questions. I have never believed in restrictions and will not like to impose any on you. But I do believe that there are rules and these rules make our discipline which eventually determines our attitude. If any of it make sense to you.

Well you must be wondering why I choose to blog about it. Well I wanted you to understand that the thought and intend was always to align with the changing time and help myself and you to understand how thinking can change or evolve with time. This also happens to be my first, as in my first hand at raising a baby and it already is such a beautiful experience.

Every morning i get up at 5 AM automatically as if the body understands that its time for you to feed and the body works towards it. Playing with you when you wake up, massaging you and then holding you close to me is such a bliss. Everytime I look at you holding close to my face, I am almost amazed to realise I am a father and how adorable you are. Its a feeling I wont be able justify in words. At least not with the writing skills I have. Dressing you up and putting you to sleep again before leaving for work. Today when I write this blog about us I must admit on a couple of things as well.

You are an adorable child. Then again when you are crying its so hard to see you that way as well. Its so so unfair and I am unable to understand what you need and what you are saying (communication) but I try and I try my best to pacify you with my lullabies, walk around the house, on the terrace, up and down the stairs, feed you, finally you either smile on your own or some of what I did worked or you go to sleep. But all of the effort does finally result in watching an adorable child sleep in the crib specially made for you.

Honey it will always be the case, you would like me to understand what you feel and how I can not understand what you going through and I would always try my best but it would always help when you will speak your mind. Speak freely cause taking it for granted that I would always understand what you need or mean would be unfair. It would also be tough to keep pace with your feelings an emotions. Lets keep our date with time as slow and beautiful as possible. Speak freely speak your mind, help me understand you and hopefully you understand the effort I put in. I am nervous I admit because I want to the best I can be for our family, for you. I love you and I always will.