Hereafter - A need for Closure

Hereafter, a movie after a long time. An experience that filled me with a lot of emotions. The movie portrayed despair, pain and helplessness in so many different ways from a young boy unable to deal with his pain to Man unable to decide whether his gift was an ability or a disability. When life leaves a lot of questions unanswered we are met with curiosity and we all know what that bird can do.
We all seem to seek closure for everything we do, in fact things we don't do also seems to seek an end. A conclusion, a result, a response, a closure for an insatiable human quest. Guess philosophies are created to sometimes help us out when we dont find answers.
The seemingly relentless fight against time and life itself stops or ceases to exists when we meet our destiny. What remains are people who have been associated with us, their questions, agony, happiness and the emptiness of people who have left us for a better living. Does this all even make sense, I have read it twice over and still finding it difficult to put it out in the manner I would really like.

Gloom or Bloom

The apathy at work is not helping me. Finding myself again would probably help I have been thinking of putting down my papers for a long time now and go on a sabbatical. Search myself in the wilderness and explore the possibility of discovering myself in the process. Such is the desperation inside.

The last few months have probably been the most stressful for me. Having to juggle with so many emotions and frustrating situations has forced me in a corner. Break free, my heart calls for it, the mind does not comply. In a vicious circle of self pity and trying to get validation or sympathy from others I really don't know why but I am not getting comfort even after speaking to people.

Its not worth it, the energy inside is the driver and I cannot afford to tire myself because of people around. Half of my energy is spent in trying to convince myself that I am worth every bit of what makes me half of it tries to defend itself. I am not convinced about the whole situation I am faced with. Is it my own doing or the people around doesn't really matter.

Search for the spark is the calling.

A R Home Decor, Mr. Hashim Bangalore

Well I thought it would only be fair to people who are searching for credentials for this company or the contractor Mr. Hashim. We had given the contract to this gentleman to complete our project not only did he leave the project incomplete. The attitude of this person has been far from being a business man. He acts like conman and threatens and misbehaves. His common line of conversation would be that he has worked with the likes of Godrej interior and that a lot of his customers owe him money. His modus operandi has been to start the project and leave it incomplete towards the end when he has collected his end of the deal.

Well in case he has contacted you for work and you are planning on starting work with him please beware. Also please verify his TIN details as the one mentioned to me seems to be derecognised as per the sales tax office bangalore.

Hope this information helps

The First Road Trip

26th Feb, 2011, yes a Saturday morning 5 AM start, marked the beginning of so many places and people that you will meet and come across in your life. But these were no strangers honey these were people who have lived all their lives to see this day when then bless you. The sight of you the fourth generation in the house. Numerous Grand parents all eagerly awaiting your arrival to see and even in a such short trip give you their life long blessings. You have brought us so much smile and joy that words wont do justice to it.

Oh sweet one, this trip also marked exploring a temple that we both have crossed several times but I guess it was meant for us to visit together. It was the Golden Temple in vellore. An architectural marvel and place which offers more than a place to worship. A long walk around the temple hardly gives you any clue on how the temple looks like up close and why would thousands of people throng this place. You were the queen honey and it seemed to me as if the temple opened its door for you to celebrate the life you have been given. Amidst all the crowd we were able to get to the temple center offer a small prayer and walk out peaceful and all along my love you slept and smiled.

Honey in a couple of days you are all set to travel yet again and the objective really wont change to much but this time for a little longer to meet your other set of great grand parents and uncles. Well i may not be a part of this journey but my thoughts and heart will be with you. I will miss you honey. The day would be 4th march.