Tomorrow mark's a significant day for me. I have been trying to prepare for this for a while now and drawing all but blanks. I thought it would be nice to probably put my thoughts on paper and see if I can make sense of it. So here's what happened ..Grr...I am still not sure if it will put any perspective of things that have happened and if it makes sense to discuss this.
Joining BEI was a move I thought will help me find a stable, secure and reasonable role to grow and learn. Well it did give me a lot of learning and aspects of areas where I need to mature further but it was never in the area of my work. From the very inception each initiative and move were marked with criticism and cynicism. Shrewd, intimidating lingo and often misleading statements didn't help me find the spark needed to take off. From being an initiator to being micro-management to finally no management it seemed that we could not find any good between us. Trust and lack of confidence did not do any good either.
What was set out to be a five year goal when I joined turned in to a couple of years to next month to tomorrow to today and now. I have been a highly motivated and ambitious person nothing can take that away from me. The motivation is independent of the environment it is from the excitement I experience every time i am in front of the customer.
Well even re-reading it does not make sense. what went wrong here I guess everything the start, the day to day affair and finding a bit of faith and support.
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